Happy Valentine !

Heh... can you believe it's another Valentine? This time around last year I was still in LA. Even though I didn't do anything this year, it's still quite special in the sense that I at least get to spend a belated Valentine tomorrow :)

Haven't been updating lately cause I've been swamped with the course... and the course. And getting to bed before 2 am. It's crazy.. last year when I was at uni, my contact hours for the first semester was about 10 hours or so, followed by a breezy 6 hours for my final semester. Then comes the big holiday.... and now, 45 hours a week. Plus the whole sleeping early and waking up early thing. I reaally need to get used to this. But I guess the good thing is after 3 months, I should get used to the whole routine and be well prepared for work.

That aside, I should start doing what I needed to do for tomorrow and clean up some stuff. Can't wait to see Gav tomorrow... I'm probably going to be fidgety all morning. I hope you all have a great Valentine, and guys, be nice to your girlfriends ;) or well... to girls :p

Thanks for the Valentine post dear :)


Today when I saw you
I knew it was just like the first time
When you met my eyes I came close
And I felt like the first time

To hold back my fear
and feel you so near
I've never been this far before
To hold back my fear
and feel you so near
I'vm scared of falling into deep this time

Do I need a reason to tell you why
I'm singing you this song
Do I need a reason to show you that
I know where I belong

Whenever I am weary I lean on
this feeling that I have
I am so much stronger now
Thankful, yes I am

Today I'll renounce them,
the doubts and the fears I've been nursing
I'll fly like a moth to the flame
and I'll feel like the first time

To hold back my fear
and let you come near
I've never been this far before
To hold back my fear
and let you come near
I'm afraid of loosing and still I go...

D'Sound - Do I Need a Reason

Overkill

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I'll be alright
Perhaps it's just imagination

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Alone between the sheets
Only brings exasperation
It's time to walk the streets
Smell the desperation

At least there's pretty lights
And though there's little variation
It nullifies the night from overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away
Come back another day

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I'll be alright
It's just overkill...

Colin Hay - Overkill

It's too early, too weak a reason to go mad.

Love and Scrubs

Wowo came over today to have a look at the place, and then I spent a fraction of the day tidying up a bit and mainly watching Scrubs. When you're by yourself, and all your close friends are either not in the same country as you, or busy working or catching up with their own lives, you tend to think about what you miss the most. And right now for me, it's my dearest boy who is back in KL this present time. I thought as this is not the first time anymore that we're apart from each other, it wouldn't be as hard as the first one.

Well, it's not. But I still miss him very much so. And since I have a lot of time and nothing to do with no one to spend time with, I ended up thinking about all the arguments and fights that we've had over the *nearly* 9 months we've been together. Most of them are due to our differences in terms of upbringing, beliefs and perception on certain matters. Then one part of this one episode in Scrubs made quite an impression on me. Quoting Dr. Cox, Scrubs season one episode 15:

'Relationships don't work they way they do on TV and the movies. Will they, won't they.. and then they finally do , and the happy forever.. give me a break.

None of them are happy because they weren't right for each other to begin with and even the ones who gets married gets a divorce anyway and I'm telling you right now through all this stuff I have not become a cynic, I haven't.

Yes I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and you know... in some cultures, a chicken. You can call me a sarc around here as I do... believe in it.

Bottom line, couples that are right for each other went through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don't let it take them down.

One of those two people will stand up and fight for the relationship every time.
If it's right and they're real lucky. One of them will say something. '

I know it's not yet valentine and probably it's too early for me to post lovey dovey mushy stuff right now. But I just wanted to say thank you dear, for standing up and fighting for it every time. Thank you for always saying something. I'm waiting for the day you return to Melbourne in two weeks with anticipation...

Back

I'm back to Melbourne and back to blogging after a long absence from... well, blogging. And I'm only blogging cause you told me to, Wo :p since I wouldn't have started otherwise. It's always nice to know that someone actually reads all those random nonsense you've been typing all these times.

Anyhow, news. Well I was back around about 15 hours ago, to a spanking newly furnished apartment (which I still have to clean tomorrow) And I'm still sleepy cause I think I didn't get enough sleep yesterday on the plane (despite sleeping through the flight from Jakarta to Singapore and Singapore to Melbourne, consequently missing breakfast this morning). Went around the city and meet up with Nanas to have lunch, went back for dinner (Nanas's Pumpkin Cream Soup and Sushi) and some indo movies... everything is all good. Except that I still feel quite strange. You know, the I-don't-really-feel-quite-at-home-yet kind of feeling.

Plus it's a bit too cold. Thankfully its a lot less humid here.

My trip was excellent, albeit a bit rushed. It was pretty hard getting around back home... but otherwise everything was great. The company, the food, the places, my home... I miss it all. Then my short trip to KL to meet my dearie and his family along with meeting up with Stella and Mel to poke fun at Nic, and Singapore to meet up with all my crazy marketing pals... haha all those crazy trips with Mich and Dali to Sentosa, shopping spree, irritating Keith after work.. :) Boy, it certainly was one of the best trips I've ever had. I miss Indo-KL-SG !

I apologise to those people that I didn't get to meet or say farewell too. My last few days in Indo was just way too rushed. Of course the fact that dearie was there made it so worth while :) *sighs*

It feels weird to know that I'm back here but I'm not starting another semester. That I won't be picking any more new marketing units, won't be seeing my friends at the usual Caulfield campus.... it's sad. But that's life hey... I wish all my comrades the best of luck in finding the best job they can get, wherever you may be :) We'll meet up in a few years time as executives ok !

Presently I'm excited but at the same time a little scared about the design course commencing in two weeks. Will write more about that later. Due for my sweet night sleep now.

Over My Head

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth

But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along

And everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head ...

7 months. What's ahead now?

An Eventful Week

Yeah, yeah I know I haven't been blogging for ages and by now probably no one would be reading this. I still feel the need to update just for the sake of it anyway. A lot of things happened this week, well, the past few weeks to be exact. But this one week has been a milestone. Things that happened include:

- Me passing all my final units (with unexpectedly ok results too) That means I'm done with my Bachelors. Yep, I'm a full-fledged Monash Marketing Graduate !

- Stuffups with the Election data entry job. But I won't go there. In any case, my roster for the next three weeks is good enough.

- Mum agreeing to me taking up a graphics design course at Shillington College. I hope I can still get in/ change my return tickets' date in time for their full time Feb intake. I'm dying to take this course and I believe it would eventually help me to get to where I want to be.

- Gav having two possible career options, both at reputable companies.

- Gav's PR application going quite smoothly.

- Scruffy finding a seemingly good new home. I don't think I'm gonna get into this either cos I'm still a little heartbroken about it, despite the good news. Sighs.

Because of the last event, I'm in a sulky stony mood right now. Sad and nostalgic. Not complaining about anything... just... sad. Sighs. I'm moving in two weeks' time. Will try to update whoever's still reading this blog with more current news in my life...

Everything else disappears

Remember to breathe
Remember to hold your head high
Remember to smile some
And just listen a while

And I cried when you talked about that
Yeah what I would've given to take it all back for you
Right then and there
In that first second stare
I knew we would be a while

Everything falls out of focus
You walk through the door
And one thing that's clear to me
Helplessly hopeless

I'm all right with that
In a room full of people
Everything else disappears...

Sister Hazel - Everything Else Disappears